Wednesday, July 21, 2010

HAPPY LIFE





Last night I learned something very important in my life. That you can not ever hate yourself as long as you are loved. You can be disappointed or feel sorry for yourself, but you can't hate your soul. You can't hate your body, you just can sulk. And that's a very different thing. 

Many years ago when I started reading philosophy books I realized that, for me, world would be such a hard place if I want to live it in the deep philosophical manner. Those days in my stripling were so hard because I was choosing. I was deciding which lifestyle is mine. I was sixteen or seventeen that finally those feelings, those thoughts fade away. And I was happy for my decision; the happy life. The simply happy life

There were times in all these years that harsh thoughts came back. The last few weeks was one of those. I started to have bad feelings about me. About my appearance. And about the twenty five years I've lived.  I felt that it wasn't enough. That I hadn't lived my life plenty.  I started to gain weight. And everything looked unnecessarily unworthy...

I am saying these because this is my place; my journal to keep track of my feelings. To keep remember that I am prosperous. That life is just a beginning. And that I need to spend it the way I want. Nothing else is real. For me, reality of life is defined in smiles and happiness. It's defined in being in love. And seeing the beauty. I know that it sometimes seems hard to ignore other ways. But it's been possible for me to be like this. Simply happy.

Today I am fine.  I told you, you just can't keep feeling bad when you're loved. And that's all that matters.  





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18 comments:

Paislea Elyse said...

i love that lace in that picture. and i love the end of your post today: Today I am fine. I told you, you just can't keep feeling bad when you're loved. And that's all that matters.

you are loved!

♥ http://www.allisterbee.blogspot.com

Jeanne-ming said...

yes you are! Great post. Inspiring even when you are 54!

jonas wunderman said...

The few messages we have sent back and forth to each other over this last year have made me feel so good, and made me smile so much.

I just want you to know that and to thank you.

Jonas :)

x

Dani said...

You brightened my day with your inspiring words!

Sholeh said...

you are beautifu and you are talented and you are terribly loved by so many people and so deeply and most of all by ur sister from the other side of the world! and you still let urself be disappinted!!!!!! don't darling u have and y. just be happy for all those things that you have and u know better than anybody else that there are just so many many of them in ur life. alife full of colors and love is urs and certainly u deserve it and much much more.
love you my sweetest thing

Ida Nielsen said...

You're amazing! Thank you :-)

Anna Emilia said...

Dear Shokoofeh,

It looks very pretty here with new details, words and of course your photos.

Happy to be back and see a bit of your days.

Hannah Sadie said...

Thank you so much for that.

I too go through waves - sometimes delighted by the simple joys and everyday beauty in life and sometimes too critical, too cold in the heart. But your words are very true, that you really can't stay unhappy when you're loved.

Again, thanks.

likeschocolate said...

I agree! Have a very happy week!

Scratz said...

I just started to follow your blog last night. Found your blog from my friend's blog, added you in and decided to check it out. 'Happy Life' reminds me of me myself but the different thing is that I don't seem to be happy and I'm looking for that happiness that you've mentioned about. I am lack of that. I hope your sharing will wake me up and finally learn to appreciate myself more to understand what exactly I want in life. Thanx for sharing!
hugs*

Bohème Circus said...

"you can't hate your soul".. I like these words. It's true sometimes we feel in dissension with ourselves... but it is necessary to take care of us... and to look at positive side and to become really what we are... while being happy of to be... The way for becoming ourselves is long, but it is a beautiful adventure...
Thank you for this post !

Theresa said...

You are young and beautiful. You are wise to realize this at your age. It's a journey...it really is.
Come see we are having a cool giveaway. Original music. My husband writes about all of the things you think about. You will like his songs.

Jodi Anderson said...

I can't believe that it has been so long since I've visited here. I've been on a bit of an unintentional hiatus.

I really like your new blog design. I like white. :)

As always, your inspiration photos are very inspiring.

May you have some beautiful days. xo

What Possessed Me said...

I think you have a wonderful, happy life ahead of you. May all your days be beautiful. xo

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matilda said...

I don't know you, but YOU, yes you - your writing, your positivity, your poetic view, your perspecitve give me A LOT. When I need some cheer up, when I need a remind that that I'm becaming an old cinic lady...I switch to your blog:)!

marta said...

Hello.
I mentioned you in my little blog, http://simplelife55.blogspot.com/
Really-really enjoy visiting your blog, so inspiring!

M.M.E. said...

I couldn't agree more. It's all a matter of perspective how we feel. Like how we thought high school was hard until we started college. Your blog is wonderful and I can't wait to see what you post next.