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STEPS TO THE NEXT LEVEL

photo of me by Niloofar.

The past few days have been overwhelmingly good. I received some great news; so great that I haven't still felt their reality! Many good changes are happening around here, and I couldn't be more thankful.

Oh and I've also been busy making cookies for Nowruz. 

Happy day, friends. xo

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MOMENTS TO OURSELVES

I've realized that one of the things I really need in my life, everyday, is a few hours to myself. I enjoy hanging out with people or having guests over, but I really appreciate those few hours a day which I pause the outer world, which I sit and do nothing. When I brew myself some tea and sit in front of the screen and enjoy the blog-world... Those silence moments in a cafe when it's me and me ... and my cup of latte. You know it's really a crowded world... we all really need some moments to ourselves...

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PERSIAN BUTTERCUP AND ALL ITS LAYERS

Can you feel the newness of season? It's not just the weather; there is something in your nature which is so positive and powerful in these first days of Spring. Here, I am sitting looking at this beautiful flower and thinking about the coming days. About changes, developments and all the big, or simple days of my future that expect me to greet them in life. I am thinking about this moment that passed just right now and about this year of being twenty-six which will never ever reoccur for me. This strange feeling of growing up, this unknown touch of time on my face, in my eyes and in my heart... 

All these thoughts on a beautiful rainy day, which nature is so gracious and so generous, make me feel deeply in love with my life. So deeply that I can't let it pass, not the tiniest instant of it, without my consideration! 

Wish everyone a moment, a rare moment, to sit and to suddenly realize how beautiful they are. xo

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AND SO ON ...

Today was the day of walking in the rain with a friend, having wet shoes with a friend, sharing a sandwich and drinking Americano with a friend. And talking a lot with a friend. Now I am home, tired and happy. With many goals and dreams to think about. 

I miss my love so much and also my beloved sister and my baby nephew; so so much ... There are moments in my life, when I am happy but a little sadness having a place in my heart, that I cordially wish life was perfect. But it's not, and I know it. I love this imperfect life tonight. Good night. xo

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ON AN ORDINARY DAY LIKE TODAY

I get up. Take a bath. Wash my hair with my favorite shampoo and treat it with some special cream mask. wrap my body in my newly washed and well scented towel. Moisturize with Victoria's Secret lotion and enjoy smelling like Amber Romance!

On an ordinary day like today; I brew tea with cardamon. And drink it while reading my favorite blogs from all over the world. 

Then at about noon I may prepare a meal. Roasted chicken with saffron, it could be. And carrot and potato on the side dish. Tomato and broccoli salad with balsamic and salt on another. 

Now it's time to grab my little notebook and take notes of my ideas for a very exciting project.

Wish you a very nice day, my dears! xo

 p.s. Thank you very much for the wonderful comments on my illustration of Tess' story. Oh and a question : Do you like to have a copy? Please let me know. 

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ONE OF OUR DAYS

Is it bad that I am more into photos than words these days? You know, I currently think way too much and I think in a writing style. I mean I think like I am writing. And in Persian. So when I am here to post, my brain feels so exhausted that it's hard to find the correct words, particularly in English. 

But I want my thoughts in written words, I really do. So maybe I need to set up a private space in Persian to keep record of my thoughts and feelings so when I am here my mind would be free and relieved to talk about "simple happy" things of my life; not the complicated dark ones. Yes, that's totally the solution. 

And thanks for listening. 

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HAPPY LIFE

credits : 1. Barely There, 2. After the party, 3. Untitled, 4. sweet things

Last night I learned something very important in my life. That you can not ever hate yourself as long as you are loved. You can be disappointed or feel sorry for yourself, but you can't hate your soul. You can't hate your body, you just can sulk. And that's a very different thing. 

Many years ago when I started reading philosophy books I realized that, for me, world would be such a hard place if I want to live it in the deep philosophical manner. Those days in my stripling were so hard because I was choosing. I was deciding which lifestyle is mine. I was sixteen or seventeen that finally those feelings, those thoughts fade away. And I was happy for my decision; the happy life. The simply happy life. 

There were times in all these years that harsh thoughts came back. The last few weeks was one of those. I started to have bad feelings about me. About my appearance. And about the twenty five years I've lived.  I felt that it wasn't enough. That I hadn't lived my life plenty.  I started to gain weight. And everything looked unnecessarily unworthy...

I am saying these because this is my place; my journal to keep track of my feelings. To keep remember that I am prosperous. That life is just a beginning. And that I need to spend it the way I want. Nothing else is real. For me, reality of life is defined in smiles and happiness. It's defined in being in love. And seeing the beauty. I know that it sometimes seems hard to ignore other ways. But it's been possible for me to be like this. Simply happy.

Today I am fine.  I told you, you just can't keep feeling bad when you're loved. And that's all that matters.  

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IN PYJAMAS

Good afternoon!

I am here for a short update.

I've started a tumblr blog. A place for gathering everything inspiring I find around the web. You can follow me here : 

A New Simple Tumblr!  I am sure you will enjoy it. :)

And for being more connected to the web world there is still a "links part" here. 

- Spread the love of mixtapes! The mixtape project. 

- One great illustrator on Flickr. Simona Cordero.

- Bursting balloons photographs.  Edward Horsford, interview and tutorial. Amazing!

- Dyeing with plants. CozyMemories. My new obsession.

- Temporary drawings on sand, earth and ice. The art of Jim Denevan.

Very beautiful.

Good Day! xo

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INSPIRATION BOARD ...

sources : 1. Flutter, 2. Untitled, 3. cheddar tights, 4. Les boutons d'or...

After a long morning walk, lots of funny talks and a healthy light breakfast today, I feel better.

...

I am grateful for everything I have, but something's wrong inside me.

I am seeking. Inside me.

Later.




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INSPIRATION BOARD ...

sources : 1. Untitled, 2. blue table and polaroids, 3. P6080015, 4. Old Camera

I am longing for traveling. And it's oddly strong.

Days and nights I dream that I am tripping. I see myself everywhere!

I see myself on top of the tall mountains in fog...

wearing big boots and a red woven hat.

I see that I am riding a bike on a road with no end. Allover green.

Wearing a white dress with tiny floral pattern.

I take a look back and see that Farshad is there too. I smile.

I dream the ocean. I smell the ocean.

I close my eyes and feel the air on my face. 

And this is slightly going to be serious...

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AFTER TWELVE DAYS

I am here. :)

First. Thanks to all those of you who are always very nice and always make me smile. 

Second. Twelve days is never enough for big changes; but it's totally fine to start the big changes.

Third. Two of my friends and I are doing illustration sessions on a routine basis. And we are so enjoying it. The images above are what I've done for our first children story book. 

Forth. Long walks are my current obsession. I am thankful for my legs. 

Fifth. I am happy that you're here. Yes. You. 

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NEW THINGS

More sketchbook pages from this week {here}.

Hello.

I am going to take a little break for a few days from blogging. I am going to try to settle down some things in life.

The stage of changing, the stage of new things.

I will spend the next few days thinking, deciding and starting. 

I am happy for my life; and so grateful. I must work better on it. My beautiful life deserves a better owner. 

:)

p.s. This whole sketchbooking thing is really making me happy. Thanks to the great Julochka  for being a big inspiration to me!  xo





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A SUMMER DREAM

Hello hello, world!

 I am feeling sweet just like orange scent, today!

Hope all is well with you, anywhere on this planet you stay.

Days are turning to summer so very fast here. 

Warm and long and bright. Like an August day.

Not a summer girl I am, already missing the winter and the rain. 

But I love summer in my dreams. Where this is allowed to wear just a cotton sun dress.

It would be white, pretty and light.

My footwear would be an olive gray canvas espadrille, or ... May I have none?! 

Barefoot walking on shore sands

With my darling one, hand in hand.

I'd like to sip an unknown pink drink. 

That taste takes me far to a Hawaiian beach. 

Green. Pink. Yellow and chic!

That's an original summer day;

Anything else is just ... something else!

xo

:)

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FAR OFF

These days are all about thoughts.

About finding new ways, new paths. About future, and about life.

Lately I so feel that these current days may be

the easiest, the gentlest and the most prosperous days in our lives.

I am looking forward to my future;

Yet it feels strangely faraway, sometimes. 

I am not good at changing, I cognize ...

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