A Simple Something!

Everything seems completely incomplete!

I can remember all that past new year times. I can remember me in those moments... I don't know what wrong with the whole universe is in this moment of year that I always feel absolutely tense and upset! every year! every damn year! and I hate it!
and this year is...Oh! totally freaky ...
Farshad's absence, Shoaleh & Ali & Dario's absence,not celebrating the new year at home and a lot more are hatefully freaking me out!
I know, I just have to get calm and think about tomorrow. I'm sure everything will be fine...
but I just wish I closed my eyes and then <<BOOMMM>> suddenly everything had changed!!!!
I really miss my buddies ... :( and I really need my {love} here... I need his voice to whisper to me and remind me all the beauties I have in my life ... and let me cry in his arms ... oh I just want to cry...
I know. I know.
I should just try and make the very lady-liked decision to smile ... :) and wish everybody a great year!
oh my God! I have a lot of wishes this year!!! so I close my eyes and wish deeply deeply ... deeeeeeply... everything I want!
...
:)
oh and I have the greatest new year's resolution list this year! (ha ha!) .
I like resolution lists. I do it every year and at the end of that year I look back at it and say : Yes girl! you made it! or sometimes: ok honey it's ok.maybe next year! ;)
it's really helpful. and maybe writing it down here makes me feel like I'm more prone to doing this cause someone has to check in with me! ;)
so wish me luck!

1. working intensely on my final project
2. improve my English and take the TOEFL test
3. learn French
4. lose 8 kilos!
   
5. take more care of my family and my {love}
6. drink more water & take my vitamins
7. get to use my little camera everyday
8. get a job
9. save money to buy a fine camera
10. learn more about photography
11. still take my design classes after graduation
12. plan for as many travels as possible!
13. learn how to swim
14. take sewing classes
15. start illustrating again at home
    
16. read more books, watch more movies
17. learn the names of all flowers
18. walk and observe the beauties around
19. learn to accept that things happen in my life that aren't on my schedule
20. try to focus more
21. cook and bake more
22. find the best way to get close to my darling Shoaleh :)
23. document more of my life
24. love my life more and live it!

fantastic! I'm 24 and I have 24 resolutions!!!
:)
as Farshad said this year is mine!
and I say :
YESSS! THIS IS OURS!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!
xoxo