Last night I learned something very important in my life. That you can not ever hate yourself as long as you are loved. You can be disappointed or feel sorry for yourself, but you can't hate your soul. You can't hate your body, you just can sulk. And that's a very different thing.
Many years ago when I started reading philosophy books I realized that, for me, world would be such a hard place if I want to live it in the deep philosophical manner. Those days in my stripling were so hard because I was choosing. I was deciding which lifestyle is mine. I was sixteen or seventeen that finally those feelings, those thoughts fade away. And I was happy for my decision; the happy life. The simply happy life.
There were times in all these years that harsh thoughts came back. The last few weeks was one of those. I started to have bad feelings about me. About my appearance. And about the twenty five years I've lived. I felt that it wasn't enough. That I hadn't lived my life plenty. I started to gain weight. And everything looked unnecessarily unworthy...
I am saying these because this is my place; my journal to keep track of my feelings. To keep remember that I am prosperous. That life is just a beginning. And that I need to spend it the way I want. Nothing else is real. For me, reality of life is defined in smiles and happiness. It's defined in being in love. And seeing the beauty. I know that it sometimes seems hard to ignore other ways. But it's been possible for me to be like this. Simply happy.
Today I am fine. I told you, you just can't keep feeling bad when you're loved. And that's all that matters.
I hope you're all doing great. Here, in this little corner of my world heat has become a serious issue. And generally I don't feel really fresh. I feel the urge to change. And the words are so hard to use.
That's it. I hope, I really hope that I can get into the swing of things very soon.
And a very big excuse to all those of you who leave nice and beautiful comments or send emails and don't get any respond from me. I do check your blogs. I do read your emails. And I am really thankful. I promise I will be a better responder to you.
Enjoy your moments; and if you can send some positive vibe to me sometimes, please. :)
Last year today I was in Fritzlar, Germany. I can't believe it's almost one year. I also can't believe that last night was the eighth anniversary of being in love with the man of my life. Eight years of growth and joy.
And please excuse the rare appearance of me and my posts here. These days are strange.
Do you like eggplant? If so, you have to try my new recipe!
Peel and slice eggplants. Add salt and leave them aside for few hours in a strainer. In a little bowl whisk the egg white and heat the oil in a pan. Dip the eggplants into egg white and fry in oil until gold brown. So delicious, trust me!
Saturday is the first day of week here in Iran. It has nothing to do with holiday or small road trips or other things you mostly do on this day. It's just a day that school kids don't like at all! And for me a day like any other days.
... My mother used to weave carpet. Then she had wrist pain and stopped doing that. But it's nice to me that now I have lots of beautiful fibers!
1. A little collection of my lilliputian creatures.
2. Lunch. Healthy and beautiful.
3. A closer look of lilliputians.
4. Things I have in my bag.
I want to tell you something :
The thing that I love the most about blogging is ... that my readers are from all over the world.
I truly can't explain this feeling, but I am sure if you're also a blogger you definitely know what I am saying.
It's wonderful, isn't it?!
I sometimes take a look at my blog stats and smile.
And imagine myself in your cities and towns.
I see myself in New York or in Arizona visiting Grand Canyon.
I see myself wearing colorful dresses in New Delhi ...
or enjoying the rain in Warwickshire.
The thought of being in Calgary or London, Bohinj in Slovenia or Tampere in Finland, Göteborg or Kuala Lumpur, Seoul or Tokyo, Erkelenz in Germany or Ecatepec in Mexico...
The thought of visiting everywhere in this world is amazing!
update : It seems that comments don't show up here in comment section.. I get them in my e-mail so I can read them but they disappear a few minutes after you leave them here. What's happening?! Anyone has any idea?
I had told you before that Julie and I are going to do a little film project together. Naturally you should wait bit longer to see and to hear more about it. But I can tell you that the films arrived today from Denmark along with many beautiful things. The clarity bird whose name is Cinnamon. Lovely little moleskin with Julochka's print on it. Cupcake cards. Love them all!